Unwanted Miracle

Maybe the title of my book sounds a little ungrateful because, after all, who wouldn't want a miracle in their life? Have you ever experienced a miracle in your life you did not originally want? Maybe you had been praying about one particular thing, and the answer to your prayer made you doubt God's very existence. There also maybe the feeling of being let down or abandoned by God, and that tears you apart with great confusion and mistrust. But then, you discover it turns out to be God's gracious gift to you to strengthen your faith. You could say, I was expecting my own special miracle from a loving God when I got pregnant for the eighth time. This was due mostly to being medically considered a high risk to carrying children to full term, for I already tragically lost five of these pregnancies, including burying our baby boy. So this was the only conception I put totally in God's hands, even prior to getting pregnant, for I knew and believed God was aware of my great fears associated with this aspect of my life. Nothing could prepare me for what was about to unfold to change my life forever.