(Un)expecting

Do you know what you're doing, having a baby?

Really. Do you? Because I didn't.

I had no idea that my life would be so irrevocably different. Despite the outpourings of advice (wanted and otherwise), I found myself lost. Constantly surrounded, yet completely alone. I didn't know what I didn't know, until I knew it. I didn't know what to expect - and learned that there should be no expectation. 

The journey into motherhood is life-changing, in every regard. For me, it was (and continues to be) the most simultaneously underwhelming and overwhelming thing that I have ever experienced. It is raw. It is challenging. It is tumultuous. It is beautiful. 

What started as cathartic journaling for me has turned into a love letter, to you.

I see you. I get it. Take me on your journey with you, and remember that you're never alone. Remember that you are enough.