Twinkling of an I in the Eye of the Self

Twinkling is an autobiography with a difference: it is not mainly an account of the outer life of a person. It reveals the emergence of the increasing influence of the inner self, and does so much as an image is revealed when a photo is being slowly developed, which image, necessarily, at the start of the process is barely visible. What emerges is the story of the growing importance of the influence of the Self. And because the life concerned was, from an early adult stage, most significantly changed by the presence in it of the effect and guidance of the latihan of Subud (Susila Budhi Dharma), the book relates how that influence began, how it developed and how it moved a life towards its fulfilment, frequently in ways that were completely unexpected. Of course, confusion and the tension between competing alternatives are always at our disposal. What is always at our disposal as well, though it is harder to perceive in amongst all the confusion, is the clarity and wisdom that can inform and guide the development of our Self in what is, after all, a one-off performance. Twinkling is one story of how that clarity and wisdom can be perceived and how it can be allowed to express itself, in ways more rewarding than what we often regard as success.