The Gospel: According to the Inner Circle

Jesus told the world His message. He gave 12 a special mission. He gave 4 secrets the others did not get. What did these 4 men feel when they heard and saw these things. Were they social zombies who blindly listened like media always portrays them as or did they have struggling thoughts that Jesus knew? Why did they respond they way they did? This is the third in the "Gospel: According to" series.