Return me to myself

Warning! This is not a book for the faint-hearted!

_______________________________ "Enigmatic, poignant, amusing, melancholic...

I've bookmarked every letter of yours for you small, you big, you from the future, because I want it to be something that stays with my boys, first in their hearts, in their minds, and then in the box of important things from their lives.

Your courage to bare your soul as you did in this book has completely disarmed me." Return Me to Myself is a poignant journey through the depths of human experience, exploring themes of depression, suicide, navigating the complexities of cancer, revisiting poignant moments from childhood, and the intricacies of gay relationships. Through raw and honest storytelling, the author bravely shares their personal struggles, offering a beacon of hope for those grappling with their own battles. With each turn of the page, readers are invited to join the author on a transformative odyssey toward self-discovery and acceptance. This powerful narrative not only sheds light on the darkest corners of the human psyche but also celebrates the resilience of the human spirit. Return Me to Myself is a testament to the healing power of vulnerability and the triumph of the human heart.

_____________________________ This book is a manifesto about unlove. It's about all the moments when I could have been loved and wasn't, and about all those when I could have loved and didn't. _____________________________ "I had to choose between two options. Either I plunged into the abyss that had just opened beneath my feet, turning it into my own grave, or I tried to cling to the rocks, not to fall, and to discover if there was any fragment of earth left to keep me alive." "My dad greeted us with a smile, to my surprise, very naturally. I almost could have believed he was happy to see both of us. He greeted us, shook hands confidently with Morris, invited him inside, hugged me, and whispered something in my ear that I will never forget: "Even though I've never told you in all these years since you told us you're gay, know that for me, the most important thing is to know that you're happy. I'm sorry that your mom can't accept this, but for me, you are just as wonderful as before. I love you, appreciate you for everything you do, and I want you to know that you've succeeded. I'm proud of you and I wish you to be happy for the rest of your life!" "Because the art of being alone, the ability to make a home in your own soul, the ability to be the foundation you need to build your house, all of these will be reflected directly in how you love the people who come into your life. When you know yourself, when you choose yourself above all, when you defend your heart at all costs, you won't accept to be loved halfway. Only then will love become less about filling a void, less about possession, less about dependence, then it will turn into something you will know and cherish with every atom of your being. Only then will you realize that its possible loss will not destroy you. You won't be afraid to live without it because you will know that you will always have yourself."