Out of My Hands

This book touches briefly on my youngest brothers' life growing up, and how we lost track of each other numerous times but always seemed to re-unite. The love we had for each other was fully tested during a period in his life where he was finally growing up and taking responsibility on. Tragic circumstances derailed his life, and because of a critical lapse in judgment on night, the lives of many were permanently changed forever. He tried to deal with the death of his girlfriend who died after an accident they had on his motorcycle, but after six weeks he have up and lost the battle and took his own life. This book is about a gut wrenching, knock down, no punches pulled fight to keep him alive, because I saw in his eyes that he no longer wanted to live with the pain from his actions. Two totally different families were involved in this tragedy, which took two young lives, and things sometimes got out of control. This book will take you on a mental ride that I would not wish on anyone. Trying to justify his suicide was impossible, but I tried. The human mind can withstand an enormous amount of pain, I found that out. It also has a breaking point, and my brother found that out as well. The aftermath of suicide especially for a loved one, is sometimes unbearable, but you have to go on. This book deals with his love, his life, the accident scene, the hospital, legal situations, his suicide, the funeral, and how some of the members of both families, were affected. I have came through this ordeal mentally intact, but I still live with the thought "could I have stopped my brother from taking his life"? I am afraid to answer that.