No Matter What, an Alcoholic's Battlecry for Freedom

I know what it's like to be half alive and not even realize it. Or if I ever got a "moment of clarity," it didn't last long enough for me to do something about it. It took a wake-up call of losing my family and my home being in foreclosure for me to finally realize it wasn't just a little drinking problem and I wasn't hurting anyone but myself for me to finally do something about it. I soon realized it wasn't going to be easy but in essence, I was saving my life and that's what kept me going when I wanted to just give up and go back to drinking many times in the beginning. More than half my life was over. I was 45 when I got sober for the last time. By then, the losses were piling up and my achievements were a distant memory. I saw people losing their lives because they couldn't get sober and since no one's ever come back from the dead to tell us how good it is on the other side, I decided to save my life and see what that had to offer. I had many goals growing up but being an alcoholic wasn't one of them but that was where drinking took me. I finally accepted, "once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic" and decided to do something because wishing myself sober wasn't going to work. I share what I learned with anyone who wanted help and go to any length in order to do so. It keeps me humble and reminds me the disease hasn't changed. No matter how much time I get in sobriety, if I pick up a drink, it's all over and I'm right back where I started. I didn't get in trouble every time I drank but every time I got in trouble, I was drinking. It was time to finally achieve some goals and get back into life. AA saved my life. I was told I can't keep it unless I give it away so I decided to share my experience, strength & hope to anyone who wants to listen. You can't make someone get sober, it's a program of attraction and that's the purpose here. If you can honestly identify with anything in my book, you just might be one of us. I strongly suggest you do something about it because it just might save your life.