Damaged Goods

Is it wrong to crave happiness and yet feel like you don't deserve it at the same time? That's me in a nutshell. My name is Emily and I am what I like to call damaged goods. I lost my parents, left the love of my life and lost a child; how I'm still surviving is beyond me. Sometimes I feel like I'm running of fumes; I'm emotionally drained and yet I continue to push myself to the edge. One of these I'm going to break...If I could go back in time, would I take it all back? Would I un-tell those lies: Probably not. Those lies brought me here, they brough me the possibility of a new love, a new start. Which, would have been an amazing ending to my tragic story, that is, until my old love resurfaced; bringing everything I worked so hard to run from crashing down on me.